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When I started reading I was maybe in year two?

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I was very into Tracy Beaker and The Dumping Ground and stuff like that. 

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Tracy Beaker was this little troubled girl who everybody thought 

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was just being naughty for the sake of being naughty

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when actually she just needed friends, she just needed people to help her out.

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If you’d have asked me a year ago

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“How are you feeling today?” 

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I probably wouldn’t have even answered you. 

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I wouldn’t have even spoken to you, probably.  

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So, the fact that I’m able to say “actually I’m feeling good about myself” is quite a shock sometimes. 

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Because when I say it to myself I have to convince myself.

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It’s like “Oh my God, you actually are alright, you actually are ok”.

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For me a good day is to be able to get up in the morning and to come to school, you know, the small achievements.

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About a year ago they were the biggest deals. 

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When I was just getting out of bed in the morning and coming downstairs, to everybody that was a miracle,

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it was like they’d seen a ghost.

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When people told me I was first going to go to therapy, a lot of my friends thought 

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“that makes you crazy”, you know, 

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“you’re going to go and see a therapist”, “what do you need a therapist for, are you crazy?”.

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But I’m not, I just need somebody to reach out to, somebody to, to be able to help me when I’m struggling. 

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And I’ve definitely had a lot of support with that, from a lot of different services, not just from therapy. 

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A lot of my thoughts, I turn them into my graffiti and I tend to brainstorm loads because I feel like it looks awesome.

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I do feel like I can express myself a lot better when I write because I don’t have to explain what it means. 

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I don’t have to make it fit.

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It can be exactly the first thing that pops into my head and it goes down on the paper 

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and again I don’t have to justify it to anybody because it’s how I think and feel.