WEBVTT FILE 1 00:00:05.000 --> 00:00:08.000 align:middle size:60% line:-8 When I started reading I was maybe in year two? 2 00:00:10.000 --> 00:00:15.000 align:middle size:60% line:-8 I was very into Tracy Beaker and The Dumping Ground and stuff like that. 3 00:00:15.500 --> 00:00:20.000 align:middle size:60% line:-8 Tracy Beaker was this little troubled girl who everybody thought 4 00:00:20.500 --> 00:00:22.000 align:middle size:60% line:-8 was just being naughty for the sake of being naughty 5 00:00:22.500 --> 00:00:25.000 align:middle size:60% line:-8 when actually she just needed friends, she just needed people to help her out. 6 00:00:31.000 --> 00:00:33.500 align:middle size:60% line:-8 If you’d have asked me a year ago 7 00:00:34.000 --> 00:00:36.000 align:middle size:60% line:-8 “How are you feeling today?” 8 00:00:36.500 --> 00:00:37.000 align:middle size:60% line:-8 I probably wouldn’t have even answered you. 9 00:00:38.000 --> 00:00:40.000 align:middle size:60% line:-8 I wouldn’t have even spoken to you, probably. 10 00:00:40.500 --> 00:00:46.500 align:middle size:60% line:-8 So, the fact that I’m able to say “actually I’m feeling good about myself” is quite a shock sometimes. 11 00:00:47.000 --> 00:00:49.000 align:middle size:60% line:-8 Because when I say it to myself I have to convince myself. 12 00:00:49.500 --> 00:00:52.500 align:middle size:60% line:-8 It’s like “Oh my God, you actually are alright, you actually are ok”. 13 00:00:56.000 --> 00:01:01.500 align:middle size:60% line:-8 For me a good day is to be able to get up in the morning and to come to school, you know, the small achievements. 14 00:01:02.000 --> 00:01:05.500 align:middle size:60% line:-8 About a year ago they were the biggest deals. 15 00:01:05.500 --> 00:01:09.500 align:middle size:60% line:-8 When I was just getting out of bed in the morning and coming downstairs, to everybody that was a miracle, 16 00:01:10.000 --> 00:01:12.500 align:middle size:60% line:-8 it was like they’d seen a ghost. 17 00:01:14.000 --> 00:01:16.500 align:middle size:60% line:-8 When people told me I was first going to go to therapy, a lot of my friends thought 18 00:01:17.000 --> 00:01:19.500 align:middle size:60% line:-8 “that makes you crazy”, you know, 19 00:01:20.000 --> 00:01:22.500 align:middle size:60% line:-8 “you’re going to go and see a therapist”, “what do you need a therapist for, are you crazy?”. 20 00:01:23.000 --> 00:01:29.000 align:middle size:60% line:-8 But I’m not, I just need somebody to reach out to, somebody to, to be able to help me when I’m struggling. 21 00:01:30.000 --> 00:01:36.000 align:middle size:60% line:-8 And I’ve definitely had a lot of support with that, from a lot of different services, not just from therapy. 22 00:01:39.000 --> 00:01:46.500 align:middle size:60% line:-8 A lot of my thoughts, I turn them into my graffiti and I tend to brainstorm loads because I feel like it looks awesome. 23 00:01:47.000 --> 00:01:53.500 align:middle size:60% line:-8 I do feel like I can express myself a lot better when I write because I don’t have to explain what it means. 24 00:01:54.000 --> 00:01:56.500 align:middle size:60% line:-8 I don’t have to make it fit. 25 00:01:57.000 --> 00:02:02.000 align:middle size:60% line:-8 It can be exactly the first thing that pops into my head and it goes down on the paper 26 00:02:02.500 --> 00:02:06.000 align:middle size:60% line:-8 and again I don’t have to justify it to anybody because it’s how I think and feel.